3.05.2009

leggo my ego

guy ritchie's film "revolver" just changed my life...

the fact that i took the time to come up with a clever name for this entry and the fact that i even keep a blog in the first place is simply to satisfy my ego. the ego cares how this entry will look to readers. the ego goes back and fixes grammatical errors because it might make me look stupid. the problem is my ego is not me, it's not even mine, but.......it likes to make me believe so, and it does. my biggest fears stem from social anxiety, how and what people think of me. it's a burden i've carried my whole life. most people shed this fear when they're younger or at least learn to deal with it. i, however, attempt to deny this dilemma on a daily basis. because i'm considering revising the title of this entry i know this to be true. although i am very familiar with self-defeating inner voices, i'm not really an authority on the matter.

but...

"Behind the curtain of our intellect and emotions is our self-image or ego. The ego is not our real self; it is the image of ourselves that we have slowly built over time. It is the mask behind which we hide, but it is not the real us. And because it is not the real us, but a fraud, it lives in fear. It wants approval. It needs to control. And it follows us wherever we go.

The ego is the prison we have built around ourselves, and now it holds us captive within its walls. Any time we feel discomfort in our body, our ego, which is e-g-o or edging-god-out, is overshadowing our inner self. Fear, doubt, worry, and concern are some of the energies associated with our ego. And how do we break free from captivity? We break free by choosing to identify with our inner self, the real us.

We break free when we feel neither beneath anyone nor superior to anyone, when we shed the need to control other people, when we no longer use stereotypes or harbor extreme likes or dislikes toward people we hardly know. We break free when we refuse to follow the impulses of anger and fear, when our speech is nurturing rather than scathing, when we choose to express only our love."

...deepak chopra is...


if you haven't seen revolver, i highly recommend it. plus andre3000 is in it and i love him.